"Mentally, it's Very Gloomy"

"I’ve tried to write a few times in the last few days, but something always got in the way. When I say I’m doing well, it’s only physically. Mentally, it’s very gloomy. But it’s hard for me to admit that. What happened and what occurred at home was awful. I saw it all firsthand. You don’t look away; you look. For whatever reason. I miss that little belly baby so much. I keep telling myself that it was for the best, though. My husband fell back into his old patterns of behavior right after the miscarriage, which hurt me deeply. Not once did he hug me. It is what it is. I fight my way through day by day, I have to function, but all I really want is to leave here.
Thank you for writing to me. It really made me happy.
You are so familiar to me, and I would almost call you a friend. I would be glad if we could keep in touch. Sending you warm regards and a hug."

— Melanie*
 

Shortly after, Melanie reached out again:
"Such great support, I can pour my heart out in writing. No accusations or anything negative in the response. And even now, I’ll say that the people you call friends and family are very lucky. I wish I had such an understanding friend by my side. It’s comforting that I can write to you from time to time. Yes, I’ve tried to talk to him, told him there are moments when I feel very sad, and I’m close to tears.
As a narcissist, he can’t help himself, rolls his eyes, and then tells me I should find something to distract myself so I wouldn’t think about it so much. I still have my friend, but I can’t burden her too much with this, because she went through the same thing three months ago. We talk and cry a lot together, but there are also moments when you’re alone with yourself and the situation. Today, I have my follow-up appointment with the doctor, and I hope nothing has been left behind. It was so terrible, and it makes me sad when I think back on it. I hung a little angel on my Christmas tree so this little being can always be present."

— Melanie*

^{*The name has been changed to protect the identity of the woman who was counseled.}